Hi everyone! Sorry I’ve stayed away so long. There are many factors that have contributed to my silence, but here I am!
So as the year starts winding down, I look back and reflect on many things. This year has been one of many accomplishments but one of losses as well. Permanent loss, loss from friends moving out of my circle, loss from parents retiring in another country. You may have experienced similar loss or worse.Your loss may have been unexpected or you may have been aware that it was coming. And I don’t know about you, but something deep down inside makes me feel like I’ve been deserted, left behind, abandoned.
Don’t get me wrong, none of the losses I’ve endured happened with the intent to hurt me or make me feel this way, it was just an outcome of the situation. And although time has passed, the tears still come to my eyes.
We endure lots of change in our lives, but I think loss is the hardest to deal with. As humans, we gravitate to the things and people (including our four-legged family members) we love dearly and build our lives and personalities around them. When we don’t have them anymore, it’s like we don’t know how to be. We feel empty and alone. Please tell me I’m not the only one.
And while no one is expecting me to just get over it, I’ve had to shake myself out of this funk because honestly, I’m not any good to anyone when I’m feeling this. I know it’s a necessary part of healing, but I’ve come to understand the reality of what the Bible says. God promised Joshua, as he promised Moises, that He would never leave him.
Everything and everyone on this earth has an end, but God’s love and presence in our lives will never leave us. Let’s rest in that beautiful promise. <3